About You.

So much of this blog has been about you. About us. I've been angry with you. I've been overwhelmingly happy with you. So much of Stage Door comes back to you. But this is my Stage! This is my life and I'm living it! You're just an immense part of it. It's kind of scary to think about how you've invaded and infiltrated my life... And how much I love it. How after a year I still haven't gotten enough of you.

You know what I miss? I miss this. The immense feeling of pride in myself. I'd worked 13 hard years for this goal... Only to go to more school. This cosmetology thing is really weighing heavily on my mind lately. It's something I definitely would love doing... But it's such a big decision...

I miss the day you saw this picture and you told me about your reaction. Make me feel like THAT again... Make me feel sexy again. Because it was wonderful.

Summer.

Everyone is anticipating it. It's exciting in Fairbanks. The sunshine, the memories, the spring fever that doesn't go away till August. It's absolutely amazing.

I wish you could be here with me. 


There are certain things I love about summer. Swing sets, the midnight sun, sidewalks. I love the blue of the sky, and the big pillow-y clouds that don't threaten your sunshiny day. Softball on Thursday and Friday nights. Picnics. Walking the dog. Going to the lake and playing the water. Hanging out with friends till 4am because it's still light out. 1am barbeques on my birthday.

Why can't you be here to enjoy it with me?


Nonetheless, I'll love summer just as much as I always do. It'll just be hard to do it with out you. <3

And I Need You Now.

I'm breaking out your sweatshirt today...
I haven't slept with it since before you came to visit.
But tonight, I need a little piece of you here with me, because I miss you.



Come back to me.