Shit.

I really didn't want anything more than a fun, flirtatious, casual experience. I am pretty sure that's what I was prepared for.
Yet here I am, wishing that tonight wasn't the last night we'd have, if we even spend it together. I guess that's the problem with actually getting to know someone.
I know that he's got a strong connection with God.
I know that he's dedicated to school,
                         and he really wants to be a lawyer.
I know that he thinks family is really, really important.
and I know little things.

So I guess it's just really hard to talk to him now about what we'll be, when tomorrow I leave. Especially since I never thought i'd even consider doing long distance, ever, ever again. Not after Adam.
Except I am considering it because I don't want to lose whatever this is. I really, really enjoy what we have going.

And I would just suck it up and talk to him - but what if he doesn't want to be with me?