Tell me would you kill, to save a life?

I just want to say,
I'm really glad you understand me the way you do. I'm not sure what kind of state I'd be in if you weren't there to listen the right way. I'm glad you can always be happy for me, no matter how my life is compared to yours. I'm glad you let me trust you. I'm glad you let me love you. I'm just really glad I have you. and I just want to say it. 


tell me would you kill, to save a life? tell me would you kill, to prove you're right? crash crash burn, let it all burn, this hurricane chasing us all underground. No matter how many deaths that I die, I will never forget No matter how many lives I live, I will never regret There's a fire inside this heart and a riot about to explode into flames. 
Where is your God?

things i'm happy to have experienced that most people would regret:

• knowing how it feels to fall in love with someone who shouldn't of deserved you.
• knowing how it feels to have your heart broken by them.
• kissing the epitome of your childhood fantasy. and still being friends after.
• one drunken night of fun with someone, doing stuff you'd never do so quickly if you were sober.

why?

1. it's an act of self-realization. that i can see so much good in people. it makes me feel better about the fact that i care too much about people. 
2. it puts love into perspective for you. i'd never appreciate how much i loved adam if i broke it off with him. having experienced a broken heart means that when i do fall in love again, i'll appreciate it that much more.
3. i'm never going to regret a kiss i enjoyed. and he was the best kisser i've ever kissed. and i learned a lot about myself in the few weeks afterwards. and about what i really want right now.
4. call it slutty if you want, but it's really freeing to just let go and let physical passion and hormones (and admittedly, a lot of alcohol) rule over rational decision making skills. just one night of letting myself go to someone i don't want to even go on a date with. 

Don't judge me. 

Actually, please do judge me. Do whatever the fuck you want. When the one being that has the true right to judge me decides it's my time, it'll know that I've loved passionately, and if "God" is really what I believe him to be, that'll be what matters most. That's what's going to let my soul  continue to live and love freely.