Unfinished.

I want to break rules. I want to break faces. I want open new doors. I want to go to new places. I want to envelop myself in a peace I've never felt before. I want to embrace this chaos and drown myself in it some more.  This complexity has snaked its way through every part of my mind and left me wondering if I'm of the insane kind. I'll be living my life day after day and constantly in the background music will play. It gradually builds till it's so fucking loud I'm surprised that the walls around me haven't fallen down. But no matter how loud I never notice it's there until suddenly there's only silence in the air. It drives me crazy that I'm only conscious of music when I realize it's no longer there. Something inside me is screaming that my secret hides in this symphony, that if only I'll listen I'll realize what makes me be.