A Healing Process - Tomorrow and You.

Tomorrow I have to stop longing for you. I have to stop imagining you coming back and begging for me again. Tomorrow I have to let go of this constant wish that you'll walk through that door and hug me, tell me you want to be with me, tomorrow, I have to be happy.
Today is my last day to cry just because I want to. Tomorrow I have to do what I absolutely don't want to do and move on. 
Today, somebody asked me what I look for in an ideal partner

"Honest, mostly (so trustworthyness). Confident. Kind. Caring. A good sense of humor. A lighthearted demeanor. Patient. LOTS of patience. Protective. The ability to be silly but also serious when they should be. Understanding. Independent. He should have strong goals in life. Someone who can take care of themselves. Someone who can be a complete dork in a way that makes me laugh, but also isn't extremely socially awkward. Someone who won't push me to move faster than I want to, both emotionally and physically. Someone who likes to cuddle but also understands that it gets too hot at night sometimes. Active. They have to respect America and our soldiers because they have to get along with Sean, Garrett, and Keber, and gaining their approval isn't easy "

There was my answer. And yeah, I honestly didn't realize until the end of my list that you fall into every single category on that list. This is what I've lost, do you see it now?! Damn you for being perfect! 
But tomorrow I have to let go of this fantasy that you'll come back and move on. Even though that's the last thing I want to do, tomorrow I have to regain my passion for life and live it how I always do. 
Tomorrow, I have to be strong.
Tomorrow I shall wear a smile and I will skip a little bit and I will enjoy life and maybe I'll even flirt a little bit and I'll open myself to the fact that there may be just one more person in Fairbanks who falls into all of those same qualifications and yet is more perfect than you in just one more way. Because I know for a fact there's one of two options out there.
Either you'll come back to me someday,
or
I'll find somebody better.